inspiration and strength...

Inspiration and strength have come from the most unexpected places for me lately. In my journey to live a healthier lifestyle, I've come to find out that I've inspired other people to do the same thing. Several people have contacted me on Facebook to let me know that they are proud of me...most of the time, I get these messages when I need it most...when I'm bored or stressed and look to food for comfort. These messages give me the strength I need to get back on track and focus on maintaining the healthy weight and eating habits I worked so hard for.

I also find inspiration in constantly looking for ways to learn new things and better myself. I am so far from perfect it isn't funny, but I'll never stop trying to find improvements. I've recently thought about going to law school and studying land use or real estate law. I used to say "I hate reading, so I could never make it through law school." Total bullshit...and a pathetic excuse to hold myself back. While training last year, I learned that excuses are ridiculous...and 90 percent of any battle is mental so if I can just overcome that mental battle and quit making excuses...I'm pretty damn sure I can do just about anything.

I've found strength in seeing my beautiful children smiling every day and seeing the love they have for each other. Jackson loves his sister almost as much as he loves food...and she is constantly looking for new ways to make him laugh. The bond between siblings is undeniable and it's clearer to me now that it can't be broken.

My brother and I are only 13 months apart in age...yes, I was "unexpected"...and growing up, we were close, but no where as close as we are now. John is an amazing brother...always has been, but I never appreciated it until recently. He has never once judged me for the decisions I've made in my life. He may not agree...and he'll usually tell me, but he is always there if I need to talk...or escape...or laugh. I am so incredibly lucky to have a brother that (1) is only 6 hours away, but (2) is also willing to drop just about anything to help me out if I need it. I love you John...I know I don't tell you enough, but I really do. You are an amazing husband and amazing father...Rachel and Tyler are so incredibly lucky...just like we are.